5 days of blogs I managed! What a bloody joke.
It was a good idea at the time but blog writing each morning disintegrated into a word doc on my laptop which I added to, then some notes in my paper diary and finally … nothing.
I even stopped the meal photos for quite a while.
And then I gave the Whole 30 up.
Slacker? Maybe.
But also, maybe not as much as I thought
Let’s recap a bit.
I’ve spent the last 3 and a bit years in weight loss world.
I’ve eaten to get my protein levels up. I’ve worked out to maximise muscle and minimise loose skin. I’ve limited alcohol because the shopping transfer addiction is enough additional addiction.
I’ve been to mindfulness workshops and tried to implement self-care because if I don’t love myself, I’ll never be truly happy.
I’ve worked out to build a healthy lifestyle.
But I’m fucking tired of some things all at the same time.
And so now?
I am heavier than my absolute lightest post-WLS. I knew that bounce back would happen and I am pleased with the muscle growth.
I still battle with the fat brain and need to decide on food choices and try and be smart about what I am eating.
But I work out regularly, take my vitamins and drink my water and I am happy. Very very very happy.
The question I’ve been asking myself is … “When am I more than Tara who had weight loss surgery but is still working to maintain a healthy life?” And then “Will I ever be just Tara again?”
And to be honest, I don’t know the answer to those questions yet or truthfully, if I am ready to step out of my post-WLS bubble right now.
I am pretty/fairly/basically sure I want to continue where I am for a bit with eating, photographing my meals and creating some recipes, F45’ing and building some muscle, participating in the Challenges with the team, being a puppy Momma and enjoying work.
I have the ThriveLife Festival organising as well and some other exciting news which I’ll share with you soon.
And looking at these photos, that s a bloody good start to 2019 I reckon.
A healthy happy start!
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